☯ Music, tattoos, piercings☯ Im an 18 year old girl called Kiara from Derry, Ireland ☯ Captains tying knots
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Tonight I want to slit my wrists

hold the blood to god’s lips and say “taste this”

Tonight I would swear that even the man in the moon

is a rapist

and stars are nothing but scars

bullet wounds from humanities drive by

firing at the face of the sky

Tonight crying would be too easy

it would please me too much

and no I don’t want you to touch me

‘cause your hands are clean

and I’m filthy

guilty with the blood of something beautiful all over me

I’ve been weak and leaking so much poison

in all the rivers around me the fish are dying

and the trees are vying for some light

but I’m the eternal night

Writing rhymes about wind chimes and world peace

while even in my sleep

I’m fighting wars that grind the enamel off my teeth

and I wake with my jaw clenched and my body bent

thinking how many dishes have I broken this week?

in an attempt to not break myself

by taking brutal belt to my hide

cause it’s hard to wanna survive

when I know if Ghandi were alive

he’d shoot me

and all the great therapists of this world might say

“girl maybe your anger is good

maybe your rage

is you emerging from the cage of everything you’ve been”

So I try to be zen singing mantras of

om mani padme hum

But God fears me too much to hear me

and my heart beats another kid in the candy store

and his mother calls the cops

and every time the clock tics

I start tic tic tic talking more shit

my voice sounding the crucifixion of everything holy

I’ve got blisters on my tongue

from pounding nails into hearts of prophets

and just when I think I can stop it

Satan resurrects inside me

and everything around me turns to hell

last night I stole pennies from a wishing well

to buy rope

to lynch the last inch of hope from the planet from the planet

And all

because you have a new girlfriend and I can’t stand it

and I know it doesn’t make sense

I know we decided to be just friends

but I didn’t think we’d be just friends forever

I mean…

I wanted to be eighty together

wanted to birth poems like babies together

and watch them grow up save the world

‘Cause girl

you’re the only one who could ever raise the sun inside me

and I swear the ground beneath my feet

is only soft because you walk beside

There were times I thought I was so lost

even God would never find me

and then you came up right behind me

and kissed a cross onto my back

and it’s things like that that got me going crazy

‘cause I was thinking maybe the breaths we’d take together

would make us live forever

and now you’re killing me

look at me i’m dying

not even trying to evolve when

I wanted to be there forty years from now

when the doctor called to say

your mother might not make it another day

and I wasn’t gonna be just ok

I was gonna be perfect

Was gonna make my love feel

like the first time you rode your bike without training wheels

kneel before you every day

like there was no one else before you

‘Cause I’ve heard your heart beat

like that breeze that could bring any violence to its knees

and the best lines i’ve ever written

I plagiarized every word from the thoughts of yours

I heard while you were just sitting in silence

Staring up at mars

but you never wish on shooting stars

you wish on the ones

that have the courage to shine where they are

No matter how dark the night

No matter how hard the fight

and how now do I turn away from that light

when I wanted to be eighty with you

birth babies like poems with you

and let them write themselves

I wanted to hold your heart to my ear like a sea-shell

til I could hear the tides of every tear you’ve ever cried

then build islands in the seas of your eyes

so you’d see there’s land to swim to

hold your hand and say “storms are born

from the same sky we write hymns to when the sun shines”

sometimes it takes tempests to wake rainbows

that will wind our pain into halos
Was gonna carve your name into my wrist
so my pulse could kiss you

Was gonna love you so well
I’d wake every morning
and tell you things like this…
bliss is the moments you’re with me
when your gone my life hurts like hell
but I’ll do anything to make you happy
even if it means setting you free
to be with someone else

Anything, Andrea Gibson (via angrytoonlink)

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My best friend Sunshine and I got matching tattoos:)
"As if you were on fire from within.
The moon lives in the lining of your skin."
Pablo Neruda (via feellng)

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